So as I approach the end of January I realize that 1/12 of this year is gone already!!! This is frightening to me as I do not feel like I have done anything great this entire month! Besides going to the gym I really haven’t done anything other than hang around the house. This depresses me as I am 26 years old and in the prime of my life. I feel like I should be more adventurous and exploratory! I am going to try to start working on that. I feel like I keep saying that I will do this when we move when I can plan better. It upsets me that I cannot plan my year or even the next few months(if you know me then you know that I love to plan because I love having something to look forward to). There are so many things I want to do like go on a vacation with Mike, meet up with Ann Marie somewhere fabulous and plan to go home and visit my family and friends again. What is holding me back? Hmm, the fact that after this Friday Mike and I will be officially free!! What a feeling! For over two years we have dreamt of the day that Mike has a successful thesis defense and we have viewed this as sort of a turning point in our life together. As we approach that day I am getting more and more anxious as we do not have anything planned for after as of now. No jobs lined up, no great location to move to and no new adventure that I have been longing for!! I am not down about this because I am being positive and believing that the reason that we do not have anything lined up right now is because the right thing has not come along yet. Everything will happen in due time and I will not allow this to get me down. Situations like this can make or break a person and can cause rifts and I do not plan on letting that happen! So I guess for the time being I am going to focus on being happy and having fun with Mike and Pumpkin! I have a great little family and I have a feeling that everything will work out for the best.
|Just because I cannot see the end of the road doesn’t mean that there is nothing there waiting for me 🙂|
“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step.” – Dr Martin Luther King Jr.